Legitimate relationship which is very Optimistically driven to become one of the Very faithfull En-devour of a person in his/her life.
Sounds very complex, though it is not so. The four letter word may be having different meaning for different people, even the way they show might be different but for me its nothing but the first sentence. I have had different forms of relationships in my life starting from infatuations which i thought a lifetime love initially and it didnt even last a month, crushes which were real and cherishable made me to think and feel that someday everything is gonna happen in my way and i will be standing beside my crush posing for my(sorry ours) marriage photo, and some more things which we cant even name.
But being in this world for 23 years and 165 days today i came to know the real meaning of the word LOVE and the true essence of how it feels to be in love.
Being in a relationship for three years abt 5 years ago, i still feel good about what i went through in those three years. There was love written all over the walls of my heart, she was a heck of a girl who always made me feel that i was special even though i never felt or believed in myself like that. I wonder how she use to handle my stupid thoughts and my flirty nature.
It still amazes me, even after knowing that i play around with girls the love and faith which she had on me never decreased even for a whisker of it. I even tried to be as true to her as she is but you know even the god of love loses his move infront of her. Now, the girl is gone and forever, being married to someone else.
I can still feel the sadness and anger which she had towards me,the last time we met. Her eyes asking me questions about why i'm not doing anything to save her and have her in my life. She for the first time lost faith on me and even the immense trust too. I still feel i was a coward at that time, who was thinking practically at a moment where i was supposed to be emotional and courageous. May be i never realized how eternal was her love. May be i never made her feel the way she used to make me feel. May be i didn't deserve her. May be she deserved best than me for the person she was and she always will be.
Far from me she is happy, may be she is enjoying her life, and its obvious that she is getting the love which, she deserved.
After exactly 1 year and 3 months being away from her and seeing her with someone else other than me. I regret for what i didnt do. I blame myself for letting her go without doing anything to retain her. As i said before i'm a coward and i have given the proof atleast for her.
All these days for more than 6 months, i always felt i was missing something and i didnt even know till today that i was missing a TRUE LOVE which i enjoyed for almost 3 years. All i can blame for, is me no one else.
In the busiest days of my life i feel for true love from a person who will be with me for ever. I even tried to divert my attention from my angel to other girls. But, nothing worked, nothing matched her love. I never was moved by anyone else even though they were breathtakingly beautiful than my angel but never they could replace her for a moment.
Yesterday it was her 23rd birthday and for the first time in 5 years i didnt speak to her on her birthday. Just i texted her and i never got a reply. I never expect her to reply, after giving so much pain to her.
May be i will never get a true love of that sort again. I'm cursed by her sufferings and its for sure that even if i marry anyone else i can never get such a eternal love. Nor i can ever show that to anyone else.
This one is dedicated to my angel whom i wish a very happie and happening life ahead.
I still miss her. I never knew that she is so special to me in the past but today she is the beautifull part of my story which i want to read again and again may be forever.....
I MISS HER. . . . even after knowing that I CANT HAVE HER IN MY LIFE. . .
Signing off in the loving memories of my love........
Sounds very complex, though it is not so. The four letter word may be having different meaning for different people, even the way they show might be different but for me its nothing but the first sentence. I have had different forms of relationships in my life starting from infatuations which i thought a lifetime love initially and it didnt even last a month, crushes which were real and cherishable made me to think and feel that someday everything is gonna happen in my way and i will be standing beside my crush posing for my(sorry ours) marriage photo, and some more things which we cant even name.
But being in this world for 23 years and 165 days today i came to know the real meaning of the word LOVE and the true essence of how it feels to be in love.
Being in a relationship for three years abt 5 years ago, i still feel good about what i went through in those three years. There was love written all over the walls of my heart, she was a heck of a girl who always made me feel that i was special even though i never felt or believed in myself like that. I wonder how she use to handle my stupid thoughts and my flirty nature.
It still amazes me, even after knowing that i play around with girls the love and faith which she had on me never decreased even for a whisker of it. I even tried to be as true to her as she is but you know even the god of love loses his move infront of her. Now, the girl is gone and forever, being married to someone else.
I can still feel the sadness and anger which she had towards me,the last time we met. Her eyes asking me questions about why i'm not doing anything to save her and have her in my life. She for the first time lost faith on me and even the immense trust too. I still feel i was a coward at that time, who was thinking practically at a moment where i was supposed to be emotional and courageous. May be i never realized how eternal was her love. May be i never made her feel the way she used to make me feel. May be i didn't deserve her. May be she deserved best than me for the person she was and she always will be.
Far from me she is happy, may be she is enjoying her life, and its obvious that she is getting the love which, she deserved.
After exactly 1 year and 3 months being away from her and seeing her with someone else other than me. I regret for what i didnt do. I blame myself for letting her go without doing anything to retain her. As i said before i'm a coward and i have given the proof atleast for her.
All these days for more than 6 months, i always felt i was missing something and i didnt even know till today that i was missing a TRUE LOVE which i enjoyed for almost 3 years. All i can blame for, is me no one else.
In the busiest days of my life i feel for true love from a person who will be with me for ever. I even tried to divert my attention from my angel to other girls. But, nothing worked, nothing matched her love. I never was moved by anyone else even though they were breathtakingly beautiful than my angel but never they could replace her for a moment.
Yesterday it was her 23rd birthday and for the first time in 5 years i didnt speak to her on her birthday. Just i texted her and i never got a reply. I never expect her to reply, after giving so much pain to her.
May be i will never get a true love of that sort again. I'm cursed by her sufferings and its for sure that even if i marry anyone else i can never get such a eternal love. Nor i can ever show that to anyone else.
This one is dedicated to my angel whom i wish a very happie and happening life ahead.
I still miss her. I never knew that she is so special to me in the past but today she is the beautifull part of my story which i want to read again and again may be forever.....
I MISS HER. . . . even after knowing that I CANT HAVE HER IN MY LIFE. . .
Signing off in the loving memories of my love........
Nice write-up Yogee....hope u ll get a good girl in future...
ReplyDeleteYogee,
ReplyDeleteSeems like very deeply felt. Be positive. Everything happens for good. Don't Worry